Celebrating Motherhood (and ME)

It’s been 6 months since I became Mama to the greatest gift God has ever blessed me with. My sweet Santiago.

And I know— you’re probably wondering why I’m posting a picture of myself, instead of my baby. Well here’s why…because today also marks a huge milestone for ME.

After…
a C-section.
feeling like a complete stranger in my own body.
breastfeeding.
isolation.
questioning if I was even equipped to handle motherhood.
wondering if I could return to work at the same pace/level as before.
thinking less of myself for switching to formula.
missing my friends. my husband. my life before Santi.
blowouts. too many to count.
feeling like a total falure multiple times a day— don’t even get me started on nights
longing for my favorite pair of vintage Levi’s that no longer fit.
sleep deprivation.
wondering endlessly if asking for help meant I was weak.
crippling anxiety coupled with endless guilt.
uncontrollable emotions.
tears. more than I’ve cried in my entire 41 years on this earth.

I’m still standing.

So today, on Santi’s half birthday, I honor my beautiful son by first honoring his beautiful (and strong AF) Mama…ME.

Tap the links below for more on my motherhood journey:
Giving Birth My Way
7 Things I Learned While Pregnant
Infertility Sucks!